but yeah i think theres also that biological factor. say, if my body stayed exactly same, male, but brains changed to female, then i think the emotional integrity it would give me would be enough to overcome the expectations of having to be an unemotional machine.
and cause i have the male brains i have, i think it makes me too serious towards my Fe and thus its not allowed to flow freely cause i take it too serious, however i realize this is a trait of every Je secondary.
but being So first is probably the reason im death aware of how people expect me to be unemotional like all males are supposed to be. even if i dont give a damn about those expectations, the pressure is sometimes too great and then i kill whatever feelings i wouldve had. i guess this is more of a finnish culture thing than broad all males thing.