I am trying to develop my emotional awareness. I need to know if the experience I have is indeed what they call Fi or my mind if fooling me into believing it.
I "allow" myself to feel feelings by not denying them. This is the hard part.
After that though it feel too much like Ti. I start following the trail of feelings. Example:
I talked to Bill and he made me angry. What did he say that made me angry? OK, that I did not produce the results I needed to. I feel anger when I think about this exactly. Why? I am afraid. (I feel it) Why? Because ... and so on.
I can't say I have reached the "end" of any such wormhole. Nevertheless this feels exactly like Ti, just sensing the feelings, trusting them to be real is new. I don't trust that my feelings are telling me the real story, cause there must be a reason why Bill would make me feel anything, cause usually that's not the case thus it is obviously not Bill my feeling is all about. That's why I follow them.
But from my observations I doubt this is really what Fi is.
Can anybody correct the process I described or attempt to describe what Fi really feels like from the inside?
What is worrying me is that i tend to think about the reasons why I have such feelings, where the feelings stem from, etc. That doesn't match with what I have observed in Fi users.
I am very worried I am not understanding what Fi is.