I think my particular situation is difficult (istp, 6w5). Mainly because I have no heart or gut to guide me; I must find guidance from other people, facts, and information. So everything has to be analyzed upside down, sideways, and end-to-end before drawing any kind of conclusion. I doubt everything, even a conclusion, and that always changes too. So yea, sometimes I envy people who can be so sure so easily, and I think it would be "the easy life" to be that way lol...... It cracks me up tho, because from my perspective, other types can be so sure of something and so sure they are being logical and rational, when they are using information to back up a decision made from the heart or gut, and/or based on feeling. When you've got nothing else to go on, your search for the truth can be never-ending and always unsure, and it pretty much assures that you have to find information and read in order to feel secure, whereas, other types have that choice because they trust themselves. Everything looks so untrue for reasons I've found. Such is the life of a skeptic.....and eventually, I think I just say "screw it" sometimes and make a blind guess. I think I find it fun to break my own rules, and I realize that somebody somewhere believes it's a good, rational decision lol I think at some point I realized that there were untruths to everything under the sun and that no one can ever be completely trusted. Nothing is ever 100%. There is no way I can believe anything totally because 100% just doesn't exist anywhere, and that leads to a lot of confusion in my world in making decisions and drawing conclusions, and in looking for something to believe in. So far, I think I trust myself to believe in nothing lmfao. But I think I've gotten to the point where I can believe in something 75% and call it a day. So yea, I think it would be easier even to be other I's. I'm glad I am me, however. Then there are those times when I just say "screw it all" and go act from 7 for awhile, and that's another story (counterphob'ing it lol)....... It becomes difficult because it is hard to act on a conclusion or decision you can never be sure of. Other people are acting from a much more solid basis than I can ever have. And then I suppose the 75% factor comes in where I just say, "well, I am now sure enough", and that's the way it has to be.
Basically, religion = none. My parents were shocked when I told them that I didn't share their beliefs on religion. They just assumed I did. I went through the motions, but I never believed it. So scratch that for support. Friends = very hard to come by. I have a hard time believing that most people are trustworthy enough, that if I got in a bad situation, they would be there. I don't trust most people to do the right thing and to protect themselves and others. Significant other = same thing. I have to accept that because of certain things they do, I can only trust them 75% at best. If they can offer enough to make it worth it, then I'll go for it but I will never trust them, and I won't be the least bit shocked when I find out they are doing something to harm the relationship, or when they do something directly to harm it. I basically accept anything and am not shocked or hurt when it happens lol...... So, basically, my life isn't all that easy, and yes, sometimes I wish I could just go run off to the pretty lights, but the great thing about it is, I do temporarily haha. (Not extreme, but to me, it's enough to let go and renew myself).
As far as the bullet items listed initially, I think at one time or another, I felt all these things, but it was mainly from youth to young-adulthood. I think I started getting over them around about age 30-ish, when I realized that all those things were okay. It's okay that other people don't understand me. It's okay that they think I am antisocial. etc. etc. I'm okay with that. I think this happened when I went out and met alot of people, and found out I preferred to be without them lmao. I like people okay, but most of them, I can't maintain, and don't really want to. I love my alone time and I don't want to be more extroverted. I've tried it and it wasn't for me. I prefer having a few people in my life who play needed roles and are worth a lot to me. My time is valuable.