Speed Gavroche
Whisky Old & Women Young
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I think death would be an exciting thig.
Hi,
I was a little disappointed to find that nobody from this group had come back with a discussion of whether or not this fear could be characteristic of a certain type of personality. A little disappointed; but not surprised. I know how irrational it is to fear things that are inevitable, and that is what makes the fear all the more difficult to fully try and deal with and settle down when I have an onset - both the frustration that I am allowing myself to go through with thinking about (and fear) something that I can't change as well as the cycle of reminders that "it's coming. what have I done that was truly important today? how much longer?"
The fear of death for me is about "the end". Of this consciousness, of (my end of) these relationships, of the possibility of learning the great secrets that no one will actually ever learn. According to my family I started fearing death real young. Definitely way before I ever experienced someone close to me passing away. I wasn't raised in a religious household. I have an early memory of being real shaken up about death and my mom having to dig out the old hippy bible they had called "The Way". There was some passage in there about the mansion in the sky with a room for everyone. That worked for me for awhile. I am an only child. I guess I was afraid of being alone forever.
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Many people say that they are afraid of or feel anxious about the idea of infinity or eternity (for example, an infinite universe). Many people also say that they are very much afraid of death. I don't recall ever being afraid of death or infinity as thoughts. On the contrary, these thoughts intrigue me. I have sometimes been afraid of death in situations where I think I'm dying on that instant but I have pretty much gotten over those fears.
I was wondering: does this have something to do with personality type? Or the eight functions? Are certain types more prone to fear death and infinity?
I hate death. I want it to die.
wait... is this directed towards me, or a general question?Did the obsessive thoughts about death "pop" in periods of stress?
Any maybe your first reaction is to say: "no, they're completely random". Think again, is there a pattern?
There is no need to suffer, try going to a psychotherapist, I'm sure you can receive the help you need, and even if those thoughts don't disappear completely, their intensity will be reduced.