It makes me rethink everything all the time and secondguess to no end. This indirectness from perceivers is making my head spinn. I seem to be constantly pissing of or hurting P's but can't do aything about it. NOw just recently I was talking to a friend online and I guess I was giving of this depressed vibe without knowing it... until she talked to her friend (who was in the same chat channel as us) giving out examples of people that had characteristics I recognized in myself. First I was not sure if it was a message to me that she wondered why I had kind of changed (I think she thought I was playing mind games with her by acting very differently then before) and if I mentally ill and stalking her and shit. Anyway she seemed to be telling this weird story to her friend while i was listening and she seemed pretty heated up, angry and stuff. It all made me kind of tired and I just left the fucking chat to then type to her something like: "if i spread my bad mood i didnt mean to be pissing u off... and if its hurting you i can understand if u want to end the friendship, i guess it would be best for both."
I've been stuck in this sort of spiral very often recently, and she was mentioning a friend (but i guess she ment me) not being content and showing different vibes.
WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO!?