1. Is the experience of emotion for you mostly negative, mostly positive, or a reasonable amount of both?
When I was younger, people used to make it a game to get a reaction out of me and so a lot of my initial experiences with emotion are negative. However as I have gotten older I have found my emotions to be an excellent guide of how I am at the moment and where I need to go. They have been a positive contributor to my personal growth. So I would say a reasonable mixture of both.
2. Have your emotions manifested in both positive and negative ways for you in the past?
Mostly negative. When I was younger I didn't have the grasp of reason to deal with how I felt. I was incredibly sensitive and a perfectionist. So if I ever felt inadequate or like I had failed then my emotions would take over and it would lead to terribly negative experiences.
3. Do you:
A. Actively avoid dealing with anything related to emotion?
No, I spend a great deal of time trying to interpret why I feel the way I feel.
B. Find that emotion is something you tend to overlook/undervalue at times, and can deal with fairly well once it's brought to your attention?
There are often times when I'll ignore my gut feelings about situations and people and will then regret it, but for the most part I think I overvalue my emotions.
C. Enjoy dealing with emotions when they come along?
It's hard work. There aren't words or ideas to describe how I feel some days.
D. Actively seek to deal with the emotions in a given situation?
Yes, because if I ignore them, they will come to bite me in the ass.
4. What do you experience when you perceive positive emotion in others towards yourself?
B. Embarrassment or fear.
5. Does your response to #4 change depending on whether the emotion is explicitly or implicitly expressed? If so, how?
If it is implicit, I would be more prone toward feeling warmth and compassion, but if it is explicit, then I would be more embarrassed and curious.
6. What do you experience when you perceive negative emotion in others towards yourself?
I feel this way with family members who chronically whine and complain about everything.
D. Pain, anger, or sadness.
E. Other (please explain).
I usually feel inadequate or like if they knew the real me or my intentions then they wouldn't feel that way.
7. Does your response to #6 change depending on whether the emotion is explicitly or implicitly expressed? If so, how?
I'll become incredibly defensive if it is explicitly expressed. However, if it implicitly suggested, I'll feel like trash for hours if not days and withdraw.