1. I'm certain my enneatype is 5, but I'm still working through MBTI... IxTP - you're welcome to type me.
2. I am female.
3. Born/raised in the USA.
5. I was born into a Christian family but currently consider myself agnostic. Maybe I'll come to my own conclusion someday.
6. I am undecided about career at this point. I'm interested in biology, psychology, and medical fields, but am not passionate about a very specific area. It's all interesting to me. I have a BA in psychology and am currently taking courses in biology and chemistry, which are prerequisites that will open up more options for me in the future.
7. I don't have many friends. Most of my online friends are male, though a greater proportion of my close friends are female. I would say I have around 5 close friends. I'm not sure how to describe my friendships but one thing they all share in common is that they accept me for who I am (and vice versa). They're able to see past my lack of small talk/light humor, which is what I think drives most people away from me. We're able to respect each others' space yet come together to offer differing perspectives and insights about mutual interests. Also, these people don't require me to be constantly hanging out with them in order to remain good friends.
8/10. I'm suspicious of the intentions of people in general. Especially online and in social situations where the person could stand to gain from playing favorites or being unfair. If someone gets stepped on, it's usually me. I do want to be accepted as part of a group and eventually find a significant other, but I'm unwilling/unable to step out from the safety of keeping my distance. The few times I tried, it ended poorly.
I'm also afraid of never finding a purpose or calling that I am passionate about. What good are talents if I have the "wrong combination"?
9. For many years I was played MMORPGs excessively as a way to escape from real life and to search for a system where I could be appreciated for my in-game skill/knowledge, despite being shy and socially distant. Of course, I found out over and over that the same social constructs that I hated in real life were every bit as present in gaming communities, if not more. The typical gamer guy prefers to 'carry' a sociable girl who is able to offer them emotional closeness, rather than accept me as a peer. I can't (and won't) offer them what they want. At the same time, I am not aggressive or ambitious enough to force my way into high-end gaming groups that care only about player skill.
11. I butt heads with my extremely Fe dad. Fortunately, both of us recognize this and we tend to avoid each other around the house. I get along with my conservative ISTJ mom most of the time. She's very loving and I share a lot of tastes (in food, fashion, etc) with her, but if a political/religious topic comes up all hell will break loose because my mom isn't able to consider the possibility of alternate viewpoints. She won't let go of the topic until she drives her opinion home (mostly restating her opinions over and over without acknowledging anything I say). Needless to say, I try to avoid those topics.
12. How am I with expressing emotion in public? I'd rather not. I try to follow expected social norms/reactions when I need to (e.g. talking to an authority figure) but it feels very forced and I'm sure the other person can tell that I'm uncomfortable. I'm okay with talking to people but facial expressions don't come naturally to me and I find it hard to make/maintain appropriate eye contact. (I have no issue with tone of voice, though.) I sometimes have to fight the urge to cry if I get rebuked or called out, but I don't really feel/express much otherwise.
13. In high school I was the silent person who sat in the corner nearest to the door and slept (or had a book on my lap underneath the desk) through every class except for biology and math team. I once fell into such a deep sleep that security was called over because the teacher couldn't wake me up when the period ended.. oops. When I wasn't asleep or in one of the classes I liked, I didn't talk and probably gave off the impression that I was never paying attention.
Sleep is still an issue for me (I stay up late and don't want to get up in the morning) but I put more effort into being a "good student" in class. I sit up front and try not to look negative.
14. I see no point to life. I attempt to distract/ground myself by studying topics of interest (typology is one of these), trying to understand the world (and people) around me, and trying to interact with my friends, but still fall into bouts of depression in between distractions. I am not suicidal but I often wish I never existed.