when i'm buzzing hard it's difficult to reject me.
i am flowing oh so perfectly. my imagination is free. i am playful and spontaneous, balanced, centered. i am deeply compassionate and benevolent. i can sensitively deal with the interior of anyone, regardless of how buried and deep their fears and concerns lie. i can show them the overall picture of themselves from many different angles. if their judgment continues to create causal links, i will draw them out until they tangle and catch themselves in their own web of lies. this is called being human, and it is being an ethical creature.
i like Ts bc they don't put up with my shit when i'm lamenting an off-day and drifting towards nihilism. they want to push me in the direction i need to go in order to get there (again and again). they get me back on track faster and more efficiently. they make me move on, accept the world, consider specific actions, relationships, movements, comparisons, create goals and go after them. i need more empirical foundation in order to learn especially in the fields i am weakest. they solve problems far better than i do, i either become infected or i massage them away, dissolve them into another substance, free them up and let them move on. but at times the toxins need to be directly removed or directly addressed, in which case i can go into paralytic shock. most of all they ask me the questions i need to hear to solve my own problems. when i hear the critical question, i, of course, immediately know the answer. but i do not ask the question, or know to ask the question, or rely on a method of investigation to uncover the question, so i wander aimlessly around the tunnels of my mind, randomly mixing beakers of ideas until something precipitates.
