I'm calling to all other ENFPs out there to see if my level of craziness is normal. Am currently completing a a college program and I have to meet professionals and do several placements alongside professionals etc and the whole thing is one big long headache for me cos I feel I have to be so guarded all the time!! ARGHH (I've been used to being a hermit for the last little while. Lots of being by myself no routine doing creative stuff etc) So anyway, sometimes I'm sitting there listening about this theory or that and I get so much excitement (Don't really know if thats the right word) / energy building up inside of me I just feel that I am on the verge of trashing the whole room and SO not in an angry way, like in a positive excitable way and when I meet new people I get so excited and curious about them that I find myself saying the WORST things ever.
Sometimes I find myself on the outside looking in at myself thinking what are you are you doing?! I know that I am coming across as loud and brash (and to be honest I'm really not either of these things) and then there is the off-beat sense of humour (sigh) I start cracking jokes that either make people fall off their seat laughing or result in people putting a large sum of money on my head... Fellow students who have only known me all of five minutes are know starting to call me a car crash waiting to happen. I get people wanting to work with me because they know it will make them look good! I have been asked by several people straight out, "Are you high?!"
My ENFP homies out there I need some help
1. Is this normal or am I in some sort of self destructive meltdown? (Wouldn't be surprising, has happened many times before)
2. How do you switch this feeling off? If my finger is on the self destruct button then HOW or HOW do I remove my godamn finger?!!!!
respect to all you guys who are this type and manage to stand at the edge of the cliff without jumping!