03-03-2016, 08:46 AM #11
03-03-2016, 09:06 AM #12
I like other peoples' drama. I don't like it in my own life. Hearing other peoples' dirty laundry is like winning a participation trophy for me. People complain about them, but I like them and they sit and rot on my shelf while I don't go bragging about them elsewhere really. In my own life.. I sometimes start drama, but they really are accidents. I don't intend to start it.. Sometimes I don't care much (like saying what I want to say in a thread, knowing people who are also deeply rooted in their opinions will hate it) which I think can be misconstrued as actively starting shit. But having two dramatic sisters + a life style of drama from their love lives alone.. Yeah, no, I definitely don't start it, and I definitely don't want it in my own.
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03-03-2016, 09:56 AM #13
Here's another thing more curious I have to ask you about. Do you experience deep, visceral connections to people?
03-03-2016, 10:43 AM #14
For me, I'd say I definitely try to dull down intensity. My sp gets very overwhelmed by it quickly. I search for intensity in a more "slow burning" sense.
And yes I experience deep visceral connections with friends and in intimate relationships (it seems to only happen with sx's though.) Also, I don't usually feel this in the moment with them. I feel it alone, inside. It's less of a shared experience, and more of an experience I've cultivated for myself, by the perception I hold of my relationship with the other person.
With regards to the first question: ime an sx dom would rather experience turmoil than settle. It's not something they seem to choose. It's just the price they pay of being very aware of what their ideal is, and not settling for less. I find it kind or admirable actually."Once the game is over, the Pawn and the King go back into the same box"
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03-03-2016, 02:34 PM #15
I think I'm sx/sp, definitely sx though.
Drama is the fastest way to disengage me. Its always made me very uncomfortable, and seems to play on my trust issues. As a small child I experienced levels of emotional and even physical sensitivity that I don't believe (or at least from my observation didn't see) in most other children. And I've heard this is common for fi doms. So dramatic people, to me, actually seem insensitive in a way. That push/pull conflicted energy vibration is extremely off-putting.
However, intensity and depth in my relationships, is very rewarding. Far beyond physical/sexual connections. So, as to your 2nd question, I think we are on the same page.
I don't have many casual, superficial relations these days. I used to, though. I tend to want a few people in my sphere, but connecting/understanding them on levels we just don't show very easily. That is my nectar. And every so often I will meet a person that, I just intuitively know I could take to those levels..and I'm not sure if I pick that up from the pure physical of them, but more likely fine-tune to a vibration they put off.Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun - Watts
03-03-2016, 04:45 PM #16
And I agree that I never really liked "dramatic" people, in the outward sense. Even in the worst of my drama, it was really all internally-based; I never made a scene of it. That would have embarrassed me. So the people who throw fits, make up lies to get attention, publicly exaggerate and display emotion--never liked 'em either.
I relate to the depth and intensity thing...right on. Generally I prefer positive intensity. I value the people I love and my relationships to them. So as long as none of that is damaged, a little negative stimulation every now and then is fine.Do what your younger self never thought she could do.
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03-03-2016, 08:08 PM #17Here's another thing more curious I have to ask you about. Do you experience deep, visceral connections to people? I don't mean in a sexual sense. I mean this rush that you feel--physically feel--around somebody, in a platonic way? Like being so deeply attracted to somebody that you can physically feel a rush through you when you think of them or see them. Caring so deeply for someone, like a friend, that it becomes more than a friendship, but not romantic? Like a special friend. A true, one friend. I don't know. I tried to explaining this concept to my friends who are both sx last, and they had absolutely no idea what I was talking about. My sister, however, who is either sp/sx or sx/sp, understood what I was talking about one hundred percent.
Deep, visceral connection - not sexual but platonic. Yes...but.
Yes, I have but it fades quickly. It usually is upon first meeting someone and getting enthralled in conversation or the vibe. But I have come to realize that afterward, I get bored with these people. It's like, 0-60 and we ran out of gas for that one awesome ride. I don't feel compelled to repeat it or care if it happens again.
I know this throws people off because it reads hot and cold. Especially if I see them again and they expect the same from me.
So, yes but my real, deep friendships don't have this quality to them. If they do, we've usually had a sexual relationship, also.~Live and learn from fools and from sages~
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03-04-2016, 06:46 AM #18At the time they cut me free. I was brimming with defiance. Doctors looking down on me. Breaking every law of science.
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03-04-2016, 07:33 AM #19
1) yes I make insane horrible life decisions and hang around chaotic people
2) yes, I either immediately have a strong positive or negative reaction about people or just don't notice them at all
03-04-2016, 08:27 AM #20
I didn't want to be incorrect but the truth is that Sx-doms can also be some of the most annoying people I know. They may claim that they have a problem with drama but many of them are actually quite attracted to it and grief it creates. From what I have seen most of Sx-doms are masochists of some kind.
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