Goddammit those last few posts, you guys are sounding so f*cking boring now. (Guess that helps determine my instincts?!
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Anyway thanks for the explanations, really, it makes some sense.
For me, sp either causes no problems or it causes all the problems. At the same time, I've discovered that my attitude to it is kind of like asking a fish how the water is and fish says "What's water?" At the same time, if there was something wrong with the water, the fish would know and react to it, right? (I know nothing about fish ... I'm just making this analogy up, haha).
I'm more openly diffident about sx and so, it's true, because I can pinpoint my areas of inadequacy in those areas. I've never felt that way about sp. At the same time, my inadequacies regarding the sx and so domains are often largely BECAUSE of overactive sp-first scaredy cat-ness, so they all kind of feed into one another for me.
Hm well I relate to you here in a way and not in another way. I can pinpoint these "areas of inadequacy" for Sx and So, but not for Sp. Otoh I don't relate to Sp causing all the problems, well unless I get into some really irritated mood because of not being able to satisfy some basic physical needs for too long due to external circumstances. Now that's bad but luckily happens rarely. Only bad if it's due to external circumstances so I don't feel in control. I will definitely snap/blow up and go do something to sort out things after all. Possibly doing extreme things
Is that Sp-dom-ish?
Oh also once I was in a really stressful period (most stress ever in a special way), I first totally neglected Sp things, totally. Pretty much stereotype of Sp-last instinct manifestation I think. Then I suddenly went to the other side of that, I started caring about all Sp things obsessively, like the threat stuff you mentioned, etc. That was breaking point for me and that's when I realised there was a problem. So I finally targeted the issue and successfully recovered.
What's that then...
Also, as to whether or not the whole "ignoring sp concerns" is specific to sp-first or sp-last ... I guess it kinda varies. A lot of sp-last people talk about how they skip meals sometimes and forget to sleep and stuff ... the thing is, I do the same thing too, sometimes. I don't want to go to bed when my attention is focused on something more exciting, like talking to my boyfriend or marathoning a TV show I'm hooked to or obsessively researching something I can't stop thinking about. So tomorrow morning will suck. That's okay though ... I can deal with it and anyway, it's not like I'm doing it everyday. I trust my body to give me the warning signals when I really need them and I'll listen to them when I have to.
In the same way, if I'm too tired to cook, I'll eat ice cream for dinner. If I'm still too tired to cook the next day and discover that there's nothing in the fridge anyway, I'll get Chinese takeout. That's fine, it's not the end of the world. But at the end of the week, I'm definitely taking my ass to the supermarket and stocking up. And I LIKE doing that. Looking at all the fresh fruit and veggies makes me happy.
I guess, unlike sp-last folks, I trust myself to know when to stop. That's never been in question for me.
Hm well, I also trust myself to know when to stop, I don't think it was ever an issue as long as I am in direct control of things. The only thing I don't relate to is liking to go to the supermarket and stocking up blahblah. I kind of just don't care. Nor do I care about the rest of these posts here about that
Maybe it's related, but I feel it's a waste of time to spend too much time cooking. So I just cook simple quick things etc. I generally minimize time spent on all these things in my life. I like to be efficient and quick and take care of it all but without spending too much time as it's just ... not interesting to me.
Sometimes I am so happy when I get takeout bc I've pushed myself so far to the limit that I almost am like crying from relief...
hahaha
I like to think of myself as being less dependent on these physical issues, but unfortunately I know the state where I get irritable simply from not eating 16+ hours. Not that this happens often but it has before so I know from experience
Still I can be proud of saying 16+ hours is a really long time. Means I'm pretty independent to an extent to physical discomfort etc
Oh and I forgot to add... I hate getting to that almost crying point, so I always try to have some easy foods available, even like frozen store brand bean burritos or something so that I don't have to get to that shaky point, even if I'm otherwise occupied when it's food prep time.
Yeah see, I don't care THIS much. I can ignore everything I want, just not the irritable state, but it doesn't make me want to stock up on food.
And I wouldn't call that a "shaky point" either.
[MENTION=20622]valaki[/MENTION]: You may have a hard time figuring out your dominant instinct based on other people's descriptions of how they experience them. For me, it was easier to go about it by figuring out vibe. Like sp-first people are kinda controlled and grounded in a lot of ways, earthy or like still water. so to me is clean and expansive and light, like warm spring air. sx is polarizing and sharp and sparky and slightly painful, like electricity.
God, I sound really new age, lol.
Lol it's okay about the new age
So... I've been called all these things before. Grounded and controlled; light (in terms of light hearted social fun); sharp/intense/heated.
What do you see me as? So far...