Did you decide on So-second because it doesn't cause you that many issues?
Yeah...A general principle on how a last instinct consistently differs from a first instinct, as opposed to how, for just one example, under-expressing in your example can apply to first or last at times, would be ideal to apply here.
That's really interesting :oAnd my body would never believe me on ice cream or even hot pockets for dinner. Too one-sided in ingredients and I finish as hungry and jittery as I was before I ate. If dinner isn't right, too, I am totally unable to sleep, so I conserve most of my food for that meal. There's a system...
...and yet I resent things like food for taking my time away from what I consider the real important stuff. The things discussed here as sp-related are things I get done so that they'll stop impinging, so the obligations will stop drowning out my thoughts and plans like an unwelcome fire alarm. Fast and unskillfully cooked works for me as long as all satisfying elements are included, and I will get irritable at the suggestion to slow down and take pride in such activities.
lol, a few months ago I hurt my head, and the hardest thing about letting it heal was having to slow down on mentally stimulating activities like studying and creating. It felt insulting, as if I was conceding power to a body dumbly inconsiderate of my needs - as if those things were seperate, which they aren't. Possibly not relevant.
You're so different from me I like independence from the body needs too, just like you, but I can ignore them whenever I please.
I don't understand the part about how your healing head had you slow down on mental activities. Was it the pyhsical pain distracting you?
Haha, the controlled thing is more IRL when I'm not being very social which is most of the time really. It's like it's hard to move me out of a sort of equilibrium and so to become social in an actual group, I need strong initiative from others. I'm not sure if that makes sense but that's how it feels to me. Sx definitely seems easier to me than this So deal. I can still get acutely aware of the group if I'm not involved so I'm not sure if that means So-last. Though quite honestly if I do get involved, I'll become less aware of the group itself, that is, it stops being an annoyance and I focus on the connections between me and each person I'm currently focusing on inside the group instead. I would attribute that to Sx > So. If I do not get involved, I will easily focus on Sp matters instead. (Along with some annoyance sometimes about the So-awareness.) Also, I was not aware of any sort of group thingies whatsoever until I got older, when I turned 13 is when I started developing some really rudimentary awareness of them, especially of the issues resulting from my non-focus on groups.You strike me as sp-last so far. I haven't seen anything controlled about your forum interactions so far. I'd probably go with sx/so because there's something about your posts that makes me a little tense/polarized but you're also an 8 and a Ti-user, so idk.
So that's why I was thinking So-last: it makes me aware of So when it causes issues. If no issues, I'm not as aware of it much. Though I've heard there is "antisocial So-firsts", whatever that may mean.
On this forum, I don't really focus on Sp that much, that's for sure. How would you even connect Sp to forum activities though? I hope my question makes sense, I'm really curious.
And, what did you mean by the Ti-user thing? I only have "SeNi" in my profile, is the Ti this obvious? Wow. And, okay, so I'm a Ti-user, how can that relate to making stuff tense/polarized? I get the 8 part haha