I have a love-hate relationship with food. I love variety and trying out new recipes. I love reading books about the history of certain types of food, how to present food properly, etc. But ingredients cost money and I tend to eat too much when I'm feeling anxious or bored.
Food scares me a little. If I eat what normal college kids do, I turn into a blob of lard and feel super sick, no matter how exercise I get. If I eat only healthy foods, I wind up either not getting enough calories (I suck at volumetric eating) or feeling really emotional. It's complicated.
I struggle with the same thing. I'm not in college, but it's hard for me to find a balance. Our personality lends itself to ups and downs and I think my eating has gotten caught up in that as well. I'm really working hard on trying to just keep everything in moderation and not focus on food. I feel your pain xoxo
You hem me in -- behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
"I trust what you are doing though…I just see it a little differently.
I don’t see it as you stepping away from the fire. I see it as the fire directing your course.
No matter how airy or earthy or watery you become... to many of us you will always be...a super nova."
"Behind these gates of seeming warmth sits, loosely chained, a fierce attack dog. Perhaps not crazy, but dangerous"
I like it but I am a slight health nut. I try to watch my sugar, salt, fat, and alcohol intake. I mostly drink water and protein smoothies (along with eating one big meal... usually 800-1000+ calories) a day. I typically avoid dessert, alcohol/sugary drinks, junk food, fast food.
I also have a bad habit of undereating or get really finicky with eating when I am stressed.
I find that when I don't eat, I can't do the shit I enjoy, I've intuitively concluded that if I were to do this long enough I would die. So I eat to avoid death and have energy, it's a lot like my cars relationship with fuel, it doesn't really care about how it looks or smells or anything, it just wants me to fill the tank.
I eat vegetarian, mostly healthy, and as much as I feel like on any given day. I consider myself lucky to have cravings for things like soy milk and mangoes instead of potato chips and fried food. The only things that really tempt me are chilled chocolate, crispy pizza pockets, and coffee.