A lazy person looks for the most comforrtable path (i.e. Least resistence), you suffer and hit a brick wall when you would be better off working. That isn't lazyness, that's a symptom.
Quit beating yourself up and get your ass to a pro who will tell you what's going on. Lazy people enjoy doing nothing. If doing nothing hurts you and yet you somehow can't help it, that's something else.