Your doctor continues to sound mentally retarded.
Viagra will make it more difficult for you to come, not less difficult. That's actually one of the nice things about PDE5 inhibitors like Viagra, Cialis, etc.
He may recommend a stimulant, which could help, but could cause other problems.
How do you feel NOW vs. how you felt on Paxil?
I'm noticing small bursts of getting off on small things, like something triggering a good feeling that I wouldn't expect. I went to the gym yesterday and while I was on the elliptical and treadmill, I felt like I was at a club. It felt amazing and exhilerating, compared to a few days ago when it was work. It's hard to really remember what happened on Paxil. I just remember small things like clothes people are wearing or things like that making me feel good, which is happening again.
Right now, I just feel...confused, anxious, scared, lonely. I'm not really sure what's wrong that's making me feel like that. It's snowing right now and I'm stuck at my sister's house with 3 siblings and my parents. We can't go out at night so I'm just left at my laptop, and really I just want to sit here staring into space listening to music. I saw a bottle of champagne my brother has and thought maybe it'd feel good to feel nothing from a few drinks. ><
I just get into this intense moods where I feel like my life has no purpose, I have nothing I want to do for fun, I start overanalyzing my family thinking they're the stupidest people on the planet and the cause of my pain. I feel like I could be doing more to feel more relaxed, but I just don't know what and it's almost like it's impossible to get the willpower to try to find solutions on my own. I just feel like I'm quickly heading nowhere. Then I start thinking about school and how I'm stuck from quitting, I can't get a functional relationship because I get anxious around girls, and it's like I can't control my weight lately.
Oh then I sit on the fact that the antidepressant MIGHT help a few hours a day for now, but then the orgasm issue pops up and then I wonder if I'm doing something wrong for making orgasms equally as important as general happiness. I start feeling like I'm doing nothing right now but going through therapy and medicine switching, and I try reading a mood therapy self-help book but all I want to do is criticize the author for expecting me to do things that feel impossible.
My mother and sister are on Paxil for anxiety. My grandfather took Lithium, and my grandmother was on some other anxiety medicine. I just really want to sit and play video games all day because I feel like life is too....confusing and hard. ><