I just do not understand how you can do this to yourselves.
I mean, I guess maybe I'm just different, because I have stuff I have to do during the day, and if I'm constantly in crippling pain that stuff ent gonna get done.
And yes, all of it is crippling pain, very light yoga kept me in bed one morning and made me faint...
Oh never mind, I'm just a sick, sick, sick little person who needs gastric bypass because she's too fat to get off her fat ass and cause herself pain and disgusting and horrible for not getting off her fat ass to help herself because helping herself only makes things worse. Fuck fuck fuck, batten down the hatches, of course, don't let her inside, it's better for her to freeze to death in the cold out there, for both us and her.
-Carefully taking sips from the Fire Hose of Knowledge
Haphazard, is there a psychiatrist on campus you can talk to? you seem so deeply unhappy it would be of benefit to you, i think. I know there's one we can see here in my uni for a much reduced fee (though it used to be free...)
Also, there must be some form of exercise that doesn't cause you such pain. Believe it or not, walking is one of the best things you can do. Swimming is also excellent. It's just a matter of finding what works for you. A defeatist attitude will help you none.
In sports today we had to compete with 3.F (the social study people. i'm 3.A - International Yay!) in Hockey and my team obviously won twice (;
Today is the Shoulder and Arm day in my P90X and the ab ripper x afterwards! I cannot wait!
"...Have you fallen in love with the wrong person yet?"
Jace said, "Unfortunately, Lady of the Haven, my one true love remains myself."
"At least," she said, "you don't have to worry about rejection, Jace Wayland"
"Not necessarily. I turn myself down occasionally, just to keep it interesting"
- The City Of Bones
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