For the last three years my PCP has been treating me for "anxious depression", more specifically Social/Performance anxiety, and the "blues"
Three fucking years of " just you wait my friend, you'll get better you'll see."
So, I recently was finally able to get a recommendation to a psychiatrist. She talked to me for over 2 hours, and explained that I don't have social axiety, but generalized anxiety disorder w/ depression. The desperation I feel overcome me, she says is a "panic attack" which I have 2-4 times a day. Oh and I have some paranoia as well.
I was so relieved to get out of there knowing for the first time what the fuck is wrong with me, why I can't sleep, or take the kids to the park, or go shopping at the store, or write on a message board without feeling like running away crying.
I also left there very pissed at my regular doctor who just basically made money off my ass. That and I'm pissed that I let him screw me over for that long.
Well, at least I got an automatized birthday email from this place. I would post more but I feel too insane and insecure. I actually don't know why I am posting this...
are there others out there?