Does anyone ever get the feeling where you want to release yourself emotionally but you can't?
Like, for me, I often have a desire to cry but I just, I dunno, feel like it's all bottled up and I can't let it flow out, even through the use of moving movies, stories, or dwelling on melancholy thoughts. For some reason, everything feels locked up inside and it's literally impossible for me to let anything out.
There are times where I just feel that I have to jettison my cargo within me but I can't. I don't think that my emotions are repressed because then I wouldn't be aware that they exist or even aware that they need to be released. Or maybe I'm confusing the definition of repressed.
Lately, the desire for intense emotional release (crying) races through my body and skull and they just won't release in the open.
Has anyone else experienced this?
What do you do about it? Because I can't find any way to release it. Like I said, I watch moving films, read moving stories, or maybe listen to powerful music, but nothing ever seems to release the feelings I have bottled up inside.