All I can say is that if you get high a lot or have messed with a lot of chemicals then there's a possibility you've done something to your body chemistry and brain chemistry or wiring and that's what's causing this, maybe you are right about the triggering phase, I dont know but I've not experienced that no.
That probably plays into it. Though the only drug I ever fuck around with is America's most popular. Harder stuff scares and even offends me.
So just a couple weeks ago I was in the car with the driving instructor, in the midst of taking my final driving test to acquire my license.
That "Love Me Like You Do" song was playing on the radio, the sun was out, it was warm, and I seriously felt much better than normal. Not because I passed the test and was about to drive independently, mind you -- nothing about my life or my future or any of that irrelevant bullshit of reality -- this was better. This was more important than reality. I was just hearing that song playing, imagining myself floating out in space making out with this chick -- I felt alive.
It's stupid, but it was good. Felt as if my surroundings offered true possibilities, as the really do, new things to see, lives to live, things to explore.
Garbage song but I'm happy to hear about your elation
I had those when much younger and back then I described (to myself, didn't dare to speak of them to anyone else) it as "someone moving furniture in my head". It went on for a week and then dissipated. And I felt somehow changed after that.
"The fact that an opinion has been widely held is no evidence whatever that it is not utterly absurd."
- Bernard Russell