For me, I like feeling unsettled -- it's a form of anxiety that is actually stimulating to me. I also like the new, the strange, the honest, the real. I feel like much of the casual happy stuff is actually not real or at least not honest, although I can appreciate elements of honesty I see in such things.
I also like to explore things through distortions; if I bend this this way and that, while trying to preserve its essence, what will it look like and what could it do?
For me, I experience it similar to a 5w4 thing -- the distortion of known items into potentially unsettling directions, the better to explore it and understand it. But there's still that weird blend of repulsion and intrigue. It reminds me a bit of the bittersweetness I enjoy in something good -- I like my good stuff to feel sad as well, based on how I see the world.
I can't really speak for others. Perhaps some people just like the jolt of being scared?
I changed my mind about my last response to this. Interest in the morbid can also be a 5 thing.
"I absorb energy like a sponge everywhere I go. It allows me to see the world and my purpose in it." Zak Bagans, Ghost Adventures (INFJ)
It could be an adrenaline rush for some people, especially sensation seekers (ISTP, ISFP, ESTP, ESFP). Or, it could be a lack of sensitivity, and not getting bothered as easily as others. Sorry to be bringing this up to anyone who was long ago corrupted, but I didn't get that freaked out by 2girls1cup. Sure, it was gross but I didn't run around screaming and barfing.
is this about my collection of large and sharp objects?
or the fact that I dissected every dead animal I could get my hands on as a child?
or perhaps the whole whistling dies irae as a default while walking?
possibly the whole researching ancient deities that no longer have followers... or touring abandoned buildings... or a preference for being awake at night
I also have a plan to dispose of the body (several actually) if I ever DO off someone, though I have no plans to kill anyone
some people just enjoy that sensation of the hairs on the back of their neck rising and the thought that they're learning or seeing something that should not be known. I'd just think it's a darker side of curiosity in a way... desire to know that which man is not meant to know
on the other hand, I really don't get a kick out of torture porn or slasher movies... the atmosphere is lacking and I keep picturing what the physical sensation of having my eyes ripped out or achilles tendon cut would be
Human beings make life so interesting. Do you know that in a universe so full of wonders, they have managed to invent boredom? -Terry Pratchett
I'm sometimes drawn to dark/morbid/disturbing things (especially in various forms of art) for different reasons, but a major one is that I often feel naturally out of touch with those darker aspects of life, even though I don't want to be. It's hard to access from within myself, so I have to turn to an external source to access that darkness and intensity. (I realize that's kinda crass, in a way.)
I've heard this can be common in e9s with a strong Sexual instinct when they start feeling too numbed out (against their will) to experience the intensity they crave. I imagine other types would have different reasons for their fascination with the dark side. My 4w5 mom doesn't seem to like dark things the way I do - (it's more like she needs it as a catharsis, a way to feel understood, purging the darkness that's already there)*, rather than using it as a path into a dark realm that's hard to access (like I do).
*on rare occasions when I do generate darkness from within, I have this need as well
In a way, I think I take darkness too lightly, and maybe I crave it because i don't really understand or experience it fully.
“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.” - Hermann Hesse
So, apparently I'm a 4w5 and I'm supposed to enjoy morbidity, because it's shocking and makes me feel special and I enjoy the thrill of taboo. I don't identify with this. Taboo is fun to play with, but It's not really an aspect of my personality. I really don't enjoy anything about death other than the various ways we regard it is a property of the living, and I want to know all about living without limits of exploration.
I like graveyards, there's a reverence and peace in them that is only gained in being alive to contemplate death. I occasionally think about the horrific, imagining being on the wrong end of it and understanding that in many ways that in these events terror and fear is multiplied in people who never will experience anything other than the possibility of bad things. I find various masquerades macabre interesting in the way they acknowledge how we live with our deaths and the legacies of those who passed. I think that in your own death there is literally nothing, it's everything else that's interesting.