I need to be admired. I think I'm naturally kind of narcissistic, but I've tried to be less so. I'm empathic/empathetic, but I've been kind of selfish with it in the past, being much more interested in what I can get out of it. I still think if I don't have some kind of relationship with someone (which would mean I get something out of it) it's basically someone else's job to act on empathy for other people. Like, unless there's some important ethical situation. It's important to act ethically regardless.
I become ever less self absorbed as I get older. There are always a bunch of little self improvement and spiritual evolution projects I have at any given moment, and this has been one of them for awhile.