I hope random people read some of the shit I have to say, and one of my early vexations (at around 20) with writing a novel was that I wanted to feel like I had something adequately important to say, then the Internet took that hurdle away, I could suddenly say whatever the hell I wanted and didn't have to submit a novel to a publisher, I could talk about my mom and my grandma and my cat, and SOMEONE would read it....and a lot of writers, artists, performers and politicians also feel this way. Obama wants people to listen to what he has to say.
People who are artists and politicians usually have some kind of inherent desire to be heard, whether overt or covert. Covert possibly in cases like Stephen King...who is one of the most fucking prolific writers, you can read his novels and basically not be surprised when you read his biography; he said once he would have been a serial killer if he wasn't a novelist, and it was because of his childhood...he had to ...put it..somewhere.
And I always felt it when I read his novels. I read a lot of Stephen King growing up, and I had this sensation after about six or eight novels that I was looking inside of his head, at him, really, as a person.
Writers are a different breed, though, they basically want to spill out their soul without being followed around by the paparazzi.
It's a different form of privacy. People who want paparazzi following them around basically don't want you to know their soul, and people who are writers want to tell you everything, but live in a secret location and only be seen physically by the light of day once per year.
I have always thought what a horrible burden it would be to be famous. I have had men approach me in public places who recognized me when I was a dancer, or people find my professional photographs or videos on-line, and I really do not like being approached. It has given me a really deep respect for celebrities. When I see really really famous people like actors or musicians I don't approach them or try to wave to them, I think it would be horrifying to even do such a thing, such an invasion of space.
I used to say I would like to be rich without being famous, but the truth is that I want to be heard, and I always have, ever since I crawled up on my grandparents coffee table in my patent leather shoes when I was three or four.
I would hate to be followed by the paparazzi though. That kind of shit is fucking scary, I could never be an actress, people ask me sometimes if that's why I came to L.A. and I'm like UM BIG HUGE NO ON THAT FRONT...I also see how the presidency ages people, how harshly men seem to age when they're in the White House.
I would hate to be followed by cameras. That would be horrible. I would probably not be able to handle it, I'd go into hiding or something.