What if a top sportsperson thinks they're no good?
What if an alcoholic no-good homeless bum thinks they are the best in the world?
What if there's anything in between or some combination?
I'm in my graduate studies and I'm a promising researcher. I was complaining that a real researcher used my idea and misrepresented it's origin. (It was a really good idea). The response I got, was essentially this: "If you thought you had such a good idea, why didn't you act on it?"
I whined and whined about how my case was handled, and in the end, what I got was this: I have too low of a self-esteem, so I tend to rely on other people's perceptions on the worth of ideas like these. It's what got me sharing those ideas in the first place. So, there it is.
So, is it all relative? What is bad self-esteem? I already thought I was better in research than 99.9% of people on average. Was that bad self-esteem? Should I have thought of myself as better than 99.99% on average? Or what is it about?
What is bad self-esteem really if it relates to something really good? What does anything like that really mean?