There are three general parts of my mind: the perceiver, the rationalizer, and the portrayer. Now, most of the time, the perceiver and the portrayer are in cahoots. they like to toy with me. The perceiver will get some type of input, and the portrayer will skew it just enough to make me go crazy. Once I go off the deep end, the rationalizer will show me how I totally screwed up; however, by the time I figure this out, it's completely too late. I rationalize how to fix the situation. Of course, by this time, the perceiver and portrayer have found something new to mess with me over. Thus I find myself in this endless loop. to make it worse, the portrayer has just about gotten me convinced that the rationalizer is in on the whole thing. Urg, more craziness!
Because the entire idea of mental treason is totally subjective, I step outside of my own mind and look at things from someone else's point of view. Again, this is completely crazy because I am not someone else; I am me. furthermore, the fact that I can honestly believe that I can do this makes me crazy on a whole new level. I proceed anyway, constantly questioning the validity of my observations. I take a scientific approach.
1. form a thesis. Any input to my mind is subject to distortion and ultimately irrational thought patterns.
2. Test Thesis. Subject myself to known inputs with known outcomes. Also subject myself to known inputs with unknown outcomes.
3. Collect and analyze data.
4. Adjust thesis if needed.
5. Repeat steps one through four until conclusive data has been obtained.
Conclusion: Not only do I think way too much, but I over analyze pretty much everything. Also, I can have a lot of fun if I turn down the sensitivity of my perceiver, I.e. get really drunk. Vodka usually does the trick. Uh hum, obviously, my rationalizer is incapacitated as well. the fun part is that the portrayer is full-steam ahead.
Anyone else relate?