I felt for maybe a year and a half, maybe a little more, that I was wasting my life. But ya know, I don't think I'm wasting my life anymore, or that I ever was. Maybe I'm not where I'd ideally like to be, but then again, I'll always be aiming for something better. I pretty much hate my job, but that's more because of the workplace than because of the job itself. And mostly because I can feel my own internal lack of direction. I guess you'd say it's a "dumbing down" job, but I think I've just had to learn different skills than academic ones. I've learned timing, management, negotiation, decisiveness, leadership, crisis management, and mediation. I'm a different person now than when I began. I'm no longer afraid of being in charge and I'm no longer afraid of the people in charge. I also met my SO at work, though he's since moved into his preferred field. All in all it's empowered me... it might not be happiness in terms of enjoyment and comfort, but it's not been a waste, either. This "dead-end" job is paving the way to my future stability. And it's giving me a dose of humility that people who have never had to work for their lives will never have, which the silver-spooner in me would like to ignore but the human in me says it's a gift not to go unrecognized, a fullness of human experience.
I'm not judging your situation, because it might be very different in nature than mine, but I also think that part of this is mindset and attitude, because I've gone from feeling one way to feeling a different way, yet nothing external has changed. The only thing that has changed is me, and ever since I've felt myself changing inside, I've begun to make positive external changes, too. Previously I had kept thinking that an answer for me would come if I just waited long enough, but I guess that was wrong because why would my mind come up with something new when I wasn't causing it to think in a different way than ever before?
Vague and interesting. Care to elaborate?I've plans how I can stop wasting it, but they all include factors that will happen but I can't influence them. They can happen today or in a year, but when it does happen, I'm ready for them and I know exactly what I'm gonna do then, step-by-step, both in the worst-case and best-case scenario.