I dropped acid in this park I used to go to all the time as a kid with a classmate. He's a bit of a druggie. For some reason though, he had no clue how to put a blotter on his tongue so I had to demonstrate, and right as I was doing it the cops drove by which never happened in my neighborhood so we hauled ass out of there knowing we'd been caught. We ended up in a Wal-Mart dazed and confused and I woke up after I looked at the tiles of the floor and it was black and white flower patterned and breathing.
I keep a dream journal, so there are many things I could post about here. Instead I'll post about the dream I had during my nap earlier.
I haven't watched any YGOTAS or the actual Yu-Gi-Oh DM anime in a week so it's a little off to me. But I was sort of Yuugi but in third-person, and I was duelling some bad guy who I can't remember, possibly a cross between Yami no Malik and someone else. Anyway, the duel was very distressing to Yuugi, and Malik was feeding on Yuugi’s unsettled-ness. Suddenly we would be inside Yuugi's head as Yami no Yuugi would be hugging Yuugi’s head to himself comfortingly (apparently my subconscious is a hardcore Puzzleshipper, I blame it on the fanfiction) and reassuring him and warning Yuugi not to let Malik feed on his uncertainty and instilling him with confidence. Then we'd be back in the real world and Yuugi would make a confident move (play a card). This happened two or three times before I woke up in a panic because I was late to a rehearsal. Anyway, each time it happened, I could empathically feel both my head in an embrace and my arms doing the embracing. And I'm like, "...wish I had a friend (who's not my mom) who'd hold me like that."
There was this river and a school was on the other side, my dad was with me and was like "you have to swim across the river you're going to be late." I was like "No, why the hell is the school over there?"
The scene shifts and I'm in the school going to class, and I'm lost, then this kid who I've only seen once in my life comes and leads me to class. The experience was eirely similar to something that happened to me before. So I get to class, everyone is there and has a Chinese chessboard on their desks and the teacher got up and said, "Welcome to engineering." Chinese chessboards are used for engineering.. Why?
It gets weirder. My friend comes to class and is like, my forehead is hot am I sick?(this EXACT event happened earlier in the day). I go yes, go to the nurse. Then I look back to class and look back at her. She morphed into this weird thing that looked like a cross between and spaghetti suit and corn cob suit. Then she goes: Do I look like spaghetti? DO I LOOK LIKE SPAGHETTI? I go "No, you look like a meatball", and I wake up confused with the phrase Do I look like spaghetti in my mind".
I had one last night that I had forgotten but am remembering now. I dont know why I get such a kick out of these but I do- they are so fucking real.
Anyways. My brother and I were babysitting our 9 and 11 year old cousins. For some reason we were like randomly out in the woods. My 11 year old cousin really wanted to get icecream, but me and my brother were like- wtf there is no icecream here are you on dope- but then my cousin pointed out this giant fucking storage shed that held all of this stuff. And we started exploring and we found a huge section with icecream in it in the back of it. So we started to get our icecream, when this random police officer comes and is all scary as fuck saying that we were trespassing and we were under arrest and had to follow him to be questioned and processed. So we did. My brother and my 11 year old cousin and 1 all went down on this eerie like ghost ship boat where everyone was just sobbing for some reason. And it took us to this scary station where everyone was wearing suits and we each had to be interviewed separately because this was a serious crime and they didnt want us conspiring. So all I remember is I had to pee in a cup or something and that they were all scarily standing there acting like they were just able to kill me at any time and I had better not get any funny ideas. And then they questioned me and it was just very eerie for some reason because it was like they knew something and were planning something but they were keeping it from me. That there was something ominous that I did not know. So then we got dropped off in this field where our extended family was. And everyone was just really silent and serious. So we stayed there I think just chit chatting for a bit until I realized that our 9 year old cousin was missing. I thought she had been retrieved by someone or something because she was too young to be charged with anything but no. She wasnt there. She must be stuck in the woods still. Lost in the woods. So I tell everyone this and my aunt and uncle freak out and everyone freaks out and we all go looking for her. It takes a week to find her but eventually my uncle finds her lying down under a bunch of leaves miles and miles away from where we left her. So we take her to the ER and she says that yeah she had an adventure all by herself in the woods but she hurt her leg. And we all look at her sadly because her leg had been amputated because it had gangrene. And yeah. I felt very bad. And even in the end of the dream it felt like something just was creepy and just not right. And I left it feeling very guilty yet perturbed.
Yesterday, I had a random dream that a long-standing friend, this sweet/shy/awkward/generous/loving ESFJ girl - whose parents took me in for a time, when I ran away at 17/left the boyfriend I'd run away with - was dead. I don't recall most of it. Just her father crying, telling me she was gone. We haven't talked in about a year & a half, our communications have always been a bit patchy since she got married/had kids.
I just googled her name, & discovered she had a son, just a few months old. And he died this past January. The dream was an unfortunate coincidence, I guess. Broke my heart to see that. I've contacted her. I hope I hear back. I hope everyone in her immediate life is being supportive.. her husband's always been kind of a prick. She doesn't live too far from here.
I need to do a better job of engaging the people I love more often. I really do.
03/23 06:06:58 EcK: lex
03/23 06:06:59 EcK: lex
03/23 06:21:34 Nancynobullets: LEXXX *sacrifices a first born*
03/23 06:21:53 Nancynobullets: We summon yooouuu
03/23 06:29:07 Lexicon: I was sleeping!
04/25 04:20:35 Patches: Don't listen to lex. She wants to birth a litter of kittens. She doesnt get to decide whats creepy
02/16 23:49:38 ygolo: Lex is afk
02/16 23:49:45 Cimarron: she's doing drugs with Jack
03/05 19:27:41 Time: You can't make chat morbid. Lex does it naturally.
Had one last night that I thought was real and had to check on-or I thought PART of it was real.
Was fathers day in the dream and for some reason my dad was being a total douche. Said happy fathers day and he started screaming at me saying how I was a shitty person and he hated me and that I didnt deserve him for a dad and how he didnt like me at all and he wished I was never born-and all this stuff- it went on for a long time in dream land.
Then I realized that I needed to get to school-which we had even though I think fathers day is generally a weekend. But yeah. My brother then got mad at me because he wanted to drive that day-but for some reason in the dream he drove this like fred flinstone like tractor thing and I started screaming at him that he better just fucking get in my car- and he did- and then we started bitching/arguing I think- but by the end of the trip I think we were ok. But we were late to school amyways.
It was highschool again for some reason and I went to my first hour class which was spanish-again dont know why but it was- and found out we had this substitute who was really crazy and who screamed and made faces and called everyone names and kept threatening us. So then she gave us time to work or something and I went over to talk to my friend and she freaked out at me and all these other people who had moved and said she was going to write all of our names down to let the teacher know who caused all the trouble.
And yeah. Then I went home and all my relatives were there for some reason and my dad was being a douche again and kept making passive aggressive remarks so I freaked out at him screaming at the top of my lungs-which of course made ME look like the crazy asshole- and then I went upstairs to go to my room and go on my laptop or something-retreat- and I checked my email and there were all these nasty threatening ones from my dad and the sub about how I just needed to keep my mouth shut and that I was evil and awful and I woke up immediately then because I felt that they were real-checked my email/inbox- nope. They werent.
Was a really odd dream with many layers. Stupid layers but many.