I'm not even sure if I want to change this, because it's both fundamentally important to staying sane but also fundamentally debilitating. I look at every task I am given and I totally filter it and read it and dissect it to figure out if it is a worthwhile, constructive task that will prove rewarding and useful. A lot of things (such as many school assignments) fail this filteration and I have a very difficult time completeing the task. I have little problem imagining a way to improve the task to turn it into something that would be more constructive both ot me as a person and to the goal of the assignment itself. In other words, I'm idealistic and the world is realistic
I'm not sure if thats worth revising though... to ignore that instict seems nearly self-destructive, it feels like I would become robotic in function without it, and it would take away from the incredible satisfaction one gets when they find and complete a task that really is useful and constructive. It feels like either evalutate everything and get few tasks done (unless of course, its the kind of task where it is reasonably possible to alter it to work better), or get everything done and go insane. I suspect that even getting things done would be met with a similar sens eof stagnancy as not getting things done, because I really need to value the work I'm doing to do my best. This ones a real doozy.