I may not fully know or understand my personality type and dominate cognitive functions, but I am absolutely sure I am an introvert. A *strong* introvert. Working in retail kills me. There are days where I can be somewhat amiable and try hard to put forward a good face, but most days can tire me with the constant interaction. Especially busy days. Talking to these people drives me insane, especially when they are slow on the uptake, or just being jerkish in general. Friends sometimes don't seem to completely grasp why it is I get so negative and dour at work. They don't get why I can't just go home and be better the next day. Why working Sundays fills me with dread.
I can sense the confusion and frustration sometimes when I'm hesitant to join them in a gathering or outing. I always have fun, but at times I almost want to step outside and just sit there in the quiet a little bit.
I need the quiet, and the lack of people so bad sometimes that I think I'm going to have a break down. Very slowly I'm coming to hate just people in general. One of my friends already says, "but you have to remember, Frost hates everything" with some frequency. He's joking but its also somewhat true.
This past holiday shopping week has beaten me both mentally and emotionally. So I have to ask, how do other introverts deal with it all? Is there even such a thing as a strong introvert, or could there be something else wrong with me that causes this frantic emotional distress when I'm actively engaged with the general populace? Or is it possible I'm just a neurotic whiner?