Standing between us and joy is the abreaction.
The abreaction is all the fear, hatred and rage we have repressed during our upbringing.
So to our surprise, we feel fear, hatred and rage when we first start to experience joy.
And worse, our abreaction is socially unacceptable. So we must repress it once again to survive in society, just as we repressed it to survive in our family.
So we are in the perfect trap. We long to experience joy, but the first thing we experience is the abreaction.
Is there a way out of this trap?