I mean I realized that I don't WANT to look at reality as a cage, that seems delusional, like something could go terribly wrong. I do not prefer that. Also, I know any time I've attempted to strongly and fancifully to challenge reality it's always came back to bite me HARD. "Like let's see if I do this..." or "think positively!" and like, yeah, no. It's more like being delusional, not having Ne. It's a relief to have a firmer grasp on reality.
Also, I can see exploring possibilities...like "more is possible than what people I know have done"...but I know this because of books and movies about real people.
When people talk about aliens I look at them funny and when they talk about flying unicorns I laugh or roll my eyes. Entertaining things that ARE COMPLETELY FANTASTICAL seems like a pointless waste of time, and can get boring.
In closing, I love theory...when it has some practical application or I can relate it in some way to my experience.
I guess not being "Super S!" is confusing. Some people are SO SURE they're a Sensor, and I didn't have that feeling.
I do know that I enjoy talking with my SJ boyz, though, about how much I hate Disney movies and the Fantasy genre. It's such a relief to be like "yeah that's fucking retarded."