I'm sure that some of you know what I'm talking about when I say this... have you ever reached a point in your life when you realize that you're probably never going to get out of life what you thought that you were going to get? I mean, everything is good, you really have nothing to complain about but it's not like you thought it would be- everything is almost- like in a dream where you know that it's not reality because everything is a little bit off.
you've committed yourself to somebody great, but there are some things you sacrificed for the relationship to make it work... you have a good job that you are successful at and it's not boring... it's just not what you thought that you'd be doing. You're already through your teens where you did the obligatory after school activities, hung out with friends and got accepted into a good college. You're through your early twenties, where you learned that the early 20s dream of working a cool job, living in a cool apartment in the bad part of town because it's cheap and going out after work every day is more like the early 20s nightmare. Now you're supposed to be a grown up. Is this what you've been working for all of these years?!?
Is wisdom the art of compromising? is that what we're supposed to learn in life? Are we supposed to be content with what we have because so many others don't have that much? what else is there to strive for when you have what most people want but still don't feel fulfilled? God's out of the question... I've tried to believe and it just doesn't click... at this point most people have kids to fill up the space but what if kids aren't desired? Is life really this purposeless?