Addiction becomes truly clear when it becomes a mirror image. One starts to become a mirage of what they once were. Friendships are there only to meet or feed whatever cravings you desire at the present time. Falsified promises are made to be broken daily, without remorse, to whomever is around at the time. Will power becomes obsolete and is replaced by something very similar, but never to be confused with.It's more the absolute will to obtain what your drink or what your drug of choice is...At almost any cost. Lying to others becomes easier each passing day due to the fact that lying to yourself has become just as necessary as the air you take in.
Old meaningful relationships have been forgotten or pushed out of sight strictly because of embarrassment. It's so hard to look someone in the eye who you respect, when the sight of yourself in the mirror is despicable. Trying to remember what once made you happy is fading...Substances have replaced emotions...Emotions are few and far between. Then, the only time you feel anything at all is the panic stricken fear you have about obtaining your next buzz. Then, when that is received, happiness isn't what you feel...It's more like relief....Until that's gone. Pictures are forgotten and stuffed away...almost in the fear that seeing yourself in your former state will be too hard to cope with.
They say the first step to clarity is admitting you have an issue...But I find that mainly applies to alcohol because it's legal...you can get a drink anywhere...If it's legal...it's okay, right? Acknowledging your issues with drug use is far easier for obvious reasons. They are all one in the same though. They become temporary escapes for the harshness of ones life, even knowing that road which is taken to avoid that harshness, will only direct you down a more turbulent, darker, colder path. Addiction is easier to handle when it's yourself, as opposed to someone you care for.
Take the time to help others with their issues when their strength is at it's low point. I've never reacted well to a suit that recites verbal banter from a book he received at Barnes&Noble. If you have someone who you care deeply for, that suffers from any substance..take your time and do the hard thing...Resistance is normal because the fear of failing, and the fear of losing the substance becomes one giant emotion..one not stronger than the other. Use your experience you've obtained through your own trials to make a difference in someone else's life...Or what have you truly learned from it?