Following my latest genius thread "People who dont think before speaking", today we have "Not being taken seriously".. ya I know its awesome
Ok now I think I have a problem here, I cant easily fix no more. My coworkers have developed a way of speaking to me like they think I am an idiot. You are definitly allowed to laugh your ass off now but I think this is a problem .
There's a difference between someone not talking too seriously to you because you are most of the times joking around and between someone talking to you thinking you are an idiot, a moron or insane. First I found this quite funny, felt like O'Neill in Stargate because I could pretty much do and say everything I wanted, but now it feels more serious. It feels like they are really convinced I am an idiot.
They are most probably right, cause I am anything else than the average person, what to others seems natural, I have troubles with and the fact that I never know the newest smalltalk or do what everybody does, makes me probably look strange. I have serious troubles of telling people what I think in ways they could understand me. This maybe the Ne + Ti combo, the first one makes you bonzo and the second one is too introverted to speak. That backed up with a Fe function that lets you scream at injustice without giving you the tools to tell others why you just screamed, prolly forms an accomplished lunatic.
I have come to terms with the fact that obviously these people are completly intolerant and asses I shouldnt worry about, still I feel hurt somehow cause I am sick of always being the guy who is different. In fact I want to belong really hard but it just doesnt work.
I have no problems with anybody teasing me, I have a leadership position at work and most people are basically happy if I dont tease them; it's just the thing that I obviously see and feel now they think I have lost it and am a weirdo.
I am wondering what would happen if they meet my girlfriend, would prolly think she's a menace to society .
I am more and more convinced that I am living in SJcentral and I am more and more convinced that I will not die at the place in which I am living currently, but that I rather have to go and see what else there is in the world for me.
Does anybody by chance understand what I am talking about and can gimme a hug ? I have grown so alone the last couple of years, I dunno even know no more where I belong :/