I don't know. Perhaps we weren't supposed to know this. Perhaps I wasn't. Maybe I realized something wrong. Perhaps this is the hell the religious people were going on about. I do know I have the ability to turn it off when I want to. I have to...and I must do so daily in order to live in this world. Because the world is two dimensional. You either are doing something..or you aren't. Because you are living. You have the choice to not live. And perhaps it's the more logical choice. I don't know. All I know..is that I want to live. That's all. How can I un-understand what I now understand? Do I choose to not understand? Isn't that just choosing understanding...choosing a different understanding? Will that make me happy? Will that make you happy?
And the truth is..you already made your choice. You make your choice every instant you choose to not do it. By choosing to not choose..you choose to live.
So please don't. I'm not sure what else I can tell you.
It is what it is.
Do what you must.