For me, the thought of running away is just when I feel overwhelmed and I know it is based out of a cowardice to make changes in my life that I can't take back. Or since this is MBTICentral, it is the "p". But I am so "p", I wouldn't actually ever be able to pull the trigger to run away either.
I know what you mean. Although I could take off fine with more anchor points. I haven't had the opportunities, but if there were friends, a company relocation, or a destination where there was at least someone to hook up with, I'd be good with that. I'm not lacking adventurousness necessarily (although I'd say that has dropped since I was younger), but I'm not good with creating entirely new social/professional situations by myself.
I have a similar yet different problem myself... I avoid taking on challenges in life, because I'm terrified of boxing myself into a corner. I always want to have the option of running away, and like to set up situations so that I'll never be trapped in anything, but I rarely DO run away from anything, because I'm too afraid of running out of resources or something if I do.
Anyway, I think it's natural that you would want to run away... you've been in a situation which, while comfortable, isn't really exposing you to a lot of new experiences. Se wants out, but Ti/Fe feels like it should stick with this. I think the stability and "pillar of the community" thing actually comes more naturally to Si/Ne users.
I think that sooner or later, you'll need a change of scenery. Probably feel a need to upend your whole life... because ultimately, what you enjoy is savoring new sensations, new experiences. Perhaps you even aspire to visions of the future (inferior Ni). But none of that gives you the natural stability of an Si user. You'll always be restless inside. Even I am, really, with my inferior Se... I just don't usually let myself act on it, and content myself with fantasies of how things could be.
However, the question... should you run away? Well, only if you're ready. You have a good thing, but a good thing can turn into a nightmare if you let it. Something good can start to feel stagnant and dead, which corrupts it. Ideally, it would be best to try and work in as many of the things you want to do into your life, without having to change your situation too radically. If there is a way that you can have both stability and the variety that you crave, that would be ideal for you. Wouldn't it be awesome to have a lot of money, and own several homes all around the world, that you could just go and visit any time that you pleased? That's not realistic for you (or most people), but it certainly is a nice thing to think about.
Anyway... I'll just leave you with two songs that popped into my head:
[YOUTUBE="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kx26NQemy6E"]Leave no deed undone[/YOUTUBE]
Time for a holiday. In fact, you might be the type that enjoys having an adventure to look forward to every year. And every year something different. It doesn't sound like you are actually running away from things, but that you just need some action and excitement to feel fulfilled. So go hiking, camping, do a walking marathon, something that fits into your perfect life while taking care of your 'wild child' on the inside. It makes you a 'reliable member of the community' while giving yourself what you know you need
Something tells me your SO will understand and gladly accommodate it, as he gets to see you blossom and enjoy yourself.
Go and experience something. Something new, something unknown. Your body's screaming for it.
I've always sucked at routines, so you're probably onto something there Satine
we do have a weekend vacation planned for 2 weeks from now, which the man is ferociously planning... and we're going on a 4 day vacation out of the country at the end of May. We both enjoy a lot of little vacations but neither of us have had any time to travel lately, so we've been here and busy instead. Staying in one place is EVIL
When I was younger I so wanted to join the Peace Corps or something of that sort, but my parents told me that before I could do anything of that sort I had to go to college since nowhere was willing to postpone my scholarship. Unfortunatly, the man does not have the same desire to travel to undeveloped parts of the world as I do, so I'll eventually have to find somewhere with a resort nearby to stash him at and then flee to the less desirable parts of the area
routine really drives me up the walls though
Human beings make life so interesting. Do you know that in a universe so full of wonders, they have managed to invent boredom? -Terry Pratchett