Again, yeah, but only with people who impulsively treat it like a finished product and (inadvertently or not) interfere with my progress. I’ve always tried to arrange hours to work while no one else is around, because interruptions make it incredibly hard for me to think- and people who have a hard time working without interruptions don’t begin to understand it. But then there are people who just 'get it', and they don't discombobulate me at all- I don't mind them seeing uncompleted work.People seeing work that I don't feel is yet completed to the extent of what I can do or know.
This probably used to be my biggest vulnerability. Once people get to a certain level with me, I give them the benefit of the doubt where others won’t get it. I just don’t have as effective a bullshit filter with them, and end up putting up with far more than I should. There are a few people who, in retrospect, I really should have stopped trusting the opinion of soon after things felt ‘off’. As I get older though, it gets easier.Once people make it through all the security measures, they have a lot of influence with me. It takes me far too long to diagnose the problem because I don't want to be unreasonable or believe the worst, and in the process I become the person who seems to care more than they do. I don't normally choose to have inconsistent or unpredictable people in my inner circle, but in this case it seems to sneak up on me. The push pull thing can keep reeling me in if I have already invested a lot and grown to care dearly for the person and see that there is good stuff in them. I'm probably inclined more to end up hanging around till they leave first rather than taking charge of what happens for myself.
Another big one is if I am in a position where I have to work under someone who is impulsive or over-reactive. I absolutely hate when someone can come along and pull a #2 (second quote listed above, about seeing work that isn’t completed) on me, because I don’t think well on the fly either. If I get consistently interrupted in the middle of working on something- and I’m expected to immediately defend any position I have, in regards to it not being done/when it will be done/why it won’t work as is- then I’ll start to have a really hard time focusing in the first place.Having to offer step by step logic based arguments to defend my position without any time to prepare. I don't think well on the fly. I feel the same way about having to do improv or something. Maybe it's an overactive inner editor.
Definitely this one too. If I have to participate in something before I’ve had a chance to soak up contextual information, then I can be really spastic and it’s embarrassing.Being forced to do something or walk into a situation before I've had a chance to observe and know what to expect and what will be asked of me. I used to hate things like having to play a game without knowing what the game entailed first. I didn't mind after I had determined that I could handle it. It wasn't even needing to win. I just knew that I get easily embarrassed and some people don't have filters and I don't want to feel angry at them or dumb in front of them, so I'd rather check it out first.