You wouldn't believe how many times I've said all of these things to myself. I've got the need. I've searched for quite some time! I am beginning to wonder if I am making it too hard. Unlike you this contribution has to be emotionally fulfilling as a standard as well. I get jealous when I see someone who believes so strongly in SOMETHING. I suppose jealousy isn't the right word really. I admire the intensity and passion. I see people who live their lives dedicated to an unseen God who upon asking....it's as real to them as anything. I wish I had that....faith without doubt. I see people who have made their culture/race the area they dedicate their lives too. I wish at times that part of me was as important to my 'identity' as a human on this earth that it could be something I'm committed to shouting from the rooftops. I've also felt the same way about gender rights. I suppose that there are too many others taking on these fights that it wouldn't really feel "unique" anymore.Originally Posted by ygolo
So I'm left drifting. It feels odd thinking you are just waiting for someone or something to grab you and shake you "get into the boat!" The price of finding something I think is settling...something I've been unwilling to do. I think it's an ego problem were I to get to the root, though this is merely speculation. I believe I should have some higher calling....instead I'm just like everyone else . I've looked into different altruistic causes which certainly have some emotion appeal to me. I do some minor 'service work'. I'm overly cautious trying so hard to look at every single angle of a cause and weigh its investment. Reality hits hard too...maybe I'm just too lazy or procrastinating.
(I love your thread ideas ygolo. Please keep it up.)