I have often wondered if there was something wrong or different with me because I have a difficult time with recalling my memories. Much of the time I seem be consciously unaware of my past. Most days seem to feel like they are the start to my exsistence, and what is set before me is my only focus.
The other thing that I find strange about myself, is my lack of emotion around things that I do actually recall. Either recallections of the recent or not so recent past. It's as though I find myself looking at past experiences as though they actually happened to somebody else, rather than to me. The things I do recall, I view them as simply facts that hold no relivance, because they are irrelavent to my present and future life. Does this actually make any sense???
I have been talking lately with someone who often delves into the past to look at their present state. And they rarely look at the future. I have noticed that many if not most people I have encountered, operate similarly, and rarely do I end up finding someone that relates with me. So I am actually wondering if this is a function issue, or just one of my oddities.
Any thoughts? Thanks for reading.