A lot of the things I do and don't do are because I feel other people expect more of me, and thus I expect more of me. Or I think something just isn't accepted in society, so I don't do it. For instance, I want to wear the color pink often, but it's hard being a guy. The harder thing is I've always had a voice in my head telling me I could've done better at something, I could've had more discipline, I could've seen the bigger picture better or I could've been less superficial. It's like a mini-ENTJ inside my head.
I've always felt insecure because of the effectiveness and productivity I've seen in SPs and xNTJs. I just don't know how to stop it. It's a lot of negative self-talk too that is just dictating my actions and stopping me from being happy. How did other people overcome this?