Thanks for the feedback! Just a quick reply from work: You guys saw this part, right?
How do you foresee my session trajectory with a therapist who spends an hour insisting that I am holding myself to an impossible standard when I describe the behavior with which I am dissatisfied and want help, in the process rationalizing actions he would no doubt decry as abhorrent if he heard them described from the victim's perspective? proximo, you probably don't know me very well, but Athenian, you're an old-timer. Do you really think I need a hand-holding enabler as a therapist, someone who is so taken in by me that they refuse to believe that I could be the one with the problem? It's not exactly like I'm on the little.bad.apple end of the Sweet Dreams spectrum here.
I would have to bring in other people (and remember the 7-hour round-trip here) to defend "their side" just to convince him to start talking about what I'm there and ready to talk about. (I wonder if he would react the same way even if I embellished that I had been violent...)
I think I need someone who is neither charmed nor confounded by me but who can take in all the information I provide and make something of that.
Edit: Me and my quick replies.