I'm not depressed, just frustrated and confused. I don't have social anxiety, I'm just acutely aware of how much responsibility is placed on me in social situations... it's not the people I'm afraid of, it's the expectations, the responsibility to do things right. If they'd let me screw up a few times without coming down so hard on me for it when I do, I might be less anxious. I have a fear of responsibility, especially new responsibilities.
If I'm anxious at all, it's because they always came down so terribly hard on me back in elementary school for EVERY LITTLE MISTAKE, so I tried to keep myself in situations where I knew all the rules and had control so they wouldn't slam me for every little thing, like talking to a kid who spoke to me during class, or getting up to get something I needed to do my work without asking permission. The point is, I was always punished for ACTION. Never INACTION. So guess which one I tend towards now?
Ever since then, I've been afraid to do anything where I couldn't clearly define the rules, because I know that "they" will make a federal case out of it if I do something in a way they don't like. I suppose it's possible that I was just too sensitive to the punishments they meted out back then, and didn't have a strong enough will to keep pushing the envelope to see where the boundaries were once someone had drawn a line in the sand. In fact, I think that might be my problem... I tend to take correction/criticism very personally.
So, you get it? It's not that I'm scared, it's that I don't appreciate being criticized, so I tend to avoid doing things that could result in criticism.
As far as Aspergers... that one just disgusts me because it would seem to imply that I'm male/masculine. I'm somewhat disturbed that you think I might have that.