I think i understand what you are saying .. or i could be totally off the mark.
I am very much at the 'accepting all that is' part, however, i do momentarily drop like last night in bed and i lost it. Pure guilt trip. i fixed that by going to the gym today and beating the hell out of the rowing machine. Lol.
I know everything happens for a reason, but like yourself, i am unaware of my path in life at this present time. It's like everything is passing me by and i am somewhat scared to make a move in case it's the wrong one.
I was reading a book recently and it spoke of Deja vu. Apparently, it happens because our subconscious is remembering our blueprint that we chose before we came here. Maybe it's new age nonsense or just maybe it could be fact.
If it's true, then i am where i am meant to be.
Apologies, if i misunderstood you.