Oddly enough institutions tend to be invisible to us.
We can see and feel our own bodies and obsess about them. And we can even see our own personalities and obsess about them. But institutions tend to fall off the radar screen.
This is odd because our institutions shape and inform us.
So not to understand our institutions means not understanding us.
Take my institution, the Australian Catholic University.
I ran smack bang into it - I ran smack bang into the authoritarianism of my university.
At first I tried to find my way around it. Then I tried to understand it, and even formed a little theory involving chaos, authority and creativity.
But nothing happened until I realised that the authoritarianism of my university was mask.
So I was fighting with and trying to understand a mask - it was like fighting with smoke.
But once I realised it was a mask, all I had to do was to take it off.
And guess what I found underneath.
Yes, I found depression. Yes my institution hides its depression under a mask of authoritarianism.