It wasn't okay to express emotions when growing up- the phrase I internalized from my childhood was, "Just suck it up and move on."
I've always had a stubborn streak, as if I'm the only one who knows how to do something right.
One day when I was thinking of someone I admired and how I came up short by comparison, I heard my internal voice say "You're not good enough." Then I knew I was a Four.
It seems like a waste of time not to be doing or accomplishing something. Even now when I feel my feelings, I catch myself trying to figure out what I can DO with them.
I also see the Reckless/Dauntless showing up in my behavior. In a way that seems counter to "self preservation" I have a penchant for spending money to buy fine things and help others out, sometimes more money than I make. It's like I get this reckless feeling that money will always be there, so why not spend it on what I love? Plus, I tend to make snap decisions without really thinking it through. For instance, I left my job of 18 years and my 20 year marriage within a month of each other.