After having a run in with a manager at work earlier (and after the subsequent neurotic reflection on my sad lot in life) I came to a revelation: that I was following a recurring pattern of behaviour which I had finally managed to articulate to myself:
1)That I spend a sizeable part of my time feeling alone with nothing in reality which can save me or offer a solution to my problem.
2)After it passes I realise there are probably solutions but I have no idea of what they are or how I would utilise them. I'm aloof to it all and no matter how much I learn this doesn't change.
3)At other points there are reservations about doing things which could alleviate my issues e.g. emigrating, moving out, finding a new job because they are external issues ; they are paid attention to stop the world from antagonising my inner world and my content self-reflection. However if I do nothing I keep suffering from the same issues e.g. being without clout at work or having a meagre income.
I'm not 100% sure this makes sense (I'm using my phone when I'm supposed to be working) but this has been a continuous problem throughout my life. Being in a bubble is a problem if outside forces keep popping it. Has anyone (particularly 4's) found ways of instinctively becoming aware of outside solutions and found ways to prevent procrastination and actually pursue them?
If you can provide insight I will try and find use for it. If my question makes little sense I shall attempt to reword.