Can you give me a little preview of what's going on inside your heads though ladies? I mean as an ENTP, I'm sure it's much different from what I experience, so it's pretty confusing to me.
Same as Lady X... that's a hard one to answer. Here's
this and
this that I just wrote for some pretty good off-the-cuff reflections.
Right now I'm just sitting in my room - pretty partly-cloudy sky outside, enjoying my last day of vacation before work again tomorrow, mired as usual in trying to decide what career path I would like to take. I'm very torn between pursuing medical school or going the psychology route. On one hand I've always wanted to be a doctor, I've always been fascinated by medical issues, I think the people/system thought balance would be pleasing, the structure of training and the job would be good for me, and I probably would have gone through with it right after undergrad if a romantic obsession hadn't led me elsewhere. On the other hand, I spend a lot of time thinking about psychology, my mind seems to gravitate that way, and I have a Psych bachelor's. But I mostly just like the fluffy stuff - motivational, positive, archetypes, and humanist, and am disinterested and turned off by a lot of cognitive, clinical, abnormal, social, developmental, and research. So that's kind of a glimpse into my mind at the immediate moment.
Other thoughts... I think your avatar is very appealing but I wish her boobs weren't so big, they seem disproportionate. I like boobs too but those aren't sexy to me, not with all that muscle under her arms. I like soft curvy women with big hips. I like how she's all a-nature, though. Poison Ivy is a disappointing character to me. I really like the idea behind her and her aesthetic and it sucks that she's "bad". I watched an episode of cartoon Batman once where you could see how they liked one another and it was so sweet, and I so wish she'd go over to the good side. Batman's kind of a questionable hero himself, though, so whatever.
I need to go to the store for a few things... I want to get a planner again... to me planners are very symbolic of having a meaningful, organized, and productive life. Things to do, people to see, work to complete. I've always loved having a planner. Being productive and forward-moving makes me really happy and positive. Life seems more colorful and exciting to me when it's like that. My current job is quite shitty, IMO - I assumed when I took it that it'd be a short-time thing, and it's turned into years and the company's gone downhill - I also need a lampshade for my new apartment, since my old one doesn't match any of the new decor (I'll donate the old one since I hate wasting), and I want to get bedding for my new bed.
I'm concerned about my grandma who's just moved into a rehab facility after major surgery, and is pretty bummed by it all, and she lives far away so I can't do much. I just visited her for 3 days but it seemed so short. I sometimes think of moving up by her... she doesn't want to move to be near us since she's lived there for 90 years and her social life is there and I can understand that. But our family visits there often and I like it there - or at least closer. But my boyfriend is in grad school here for at least two more years and my little brother is starting university near here this fall. I'm super excited for my brother and I hope his college experience is as fun as mine, though also I hope he leaves with a better sense of what he wants to do next.
I've been with my boyfriend for more than two years now and I think we're doing really well in our relationship. We're very attracted to one another and we've worked through a lot. We have very compatible values, plans, and dreams. We talked about the future recently and we're both interested in further commitment. That one's a little scary to me but it's also something that I've always wanted, so it's very exciting, too. I'm not sure either of us is ready quite yet but we're saying in the next 5 years, so that seems good to me. Not rushed but not lagging, either. Steadily flowing forward and inward. It's interesting because the closer we get, the more I feel comfortable separating. Like we had that attached-at-the-hip thing for a while, and of course we still very much are, but it's also easier to leave and do my own thing now. I think it'd be good for me to get a move on and get into grad school or med school because then he can do his schooling too and we can just both be mired in that for a while, and then I'd like to travel. Maybe if I did med school I could spend some later years training in another country... that'd be really cool. I've always wanted to do Doctors Without Borders. I'm really moved by humanitarian causes and I have a strong big-picture social outlook. I want to do work that impacts a large population. Haha, back to career. My thoughts loop like this a lot. Loop and move foward. Loop and move forward.
Last thought, I went downstairs earlier and was reading the newspaper and saw this ad:
Initial thoughts are that I like the color of the woman's dress on the right, though it makes her upper body look strangely wide. I like her hair color, too. I dyed my hair that color at one point. I take note of the contrasts between them. I feel some degree of association with the redhead because of liking her hair and dress and being interested in medicine, like her gloves and bag imply. I notice the bulge of the body between them and the gross white feet. Then I notice their shoes, and while it's not surprising that the one in the dress has heels, it sort of makes me laugh that the more tomboyish one still has these super-high heels and makeup and supermodel hair. I've basically given up high-high heels - gave a bunch to a friend - and go for comfortable kitten heels now. I think it's funy that this "tomboyish" policewoman is in these tiny stilettos. As soon as she walks on that grass she'll sink 4 inches in. Kind of an interesting commentary on how women need to be portrayed to be "attractive" - even though it'd be way more realistic and consistent to have her in a nice pair of flats.
Hope that gives you a decent idea. Like Lady X said, it'd probably be easier to show you processing via questions.
Unless I'm completely drained, it usually takes me over an hour to fall asleep because I keep thinking about things.
