Okay, this is so we can share input on any kind of addiction. A lot of these Enneagram authors talk about how the 9 types struggle with being addicted to... I guess whatever sooths our fixation. So that could be the unhealthy way we deal with our perception of the world. If you would like to add drug addictions or anything else though, I think that would be great, because that's part of it.
Keep in mind, I am pretty sure I'm a Type Four, but I can't be 100% positive. So here it is.
I am weak without relationships. They seem to be my driving force. But I don't want that drive from anybody unless we really connect, so most of my adult life, I have been on my own squirming to push myself forward on my own. When I'm doing good, I can find some of this connection in good friends. Otherwise, I start to resort to pills, sleeping too much, or just lounging around in terrible self-defeating thoughts. So it seems part of my ultimate addiction is having a soul mate and the other part is sadness. I can be happy when I'm sad, but sometimes the sadness can get the best of me when I can't keep it in good perspective. I do think if I had my soul mate I would have a lot of joy... But the self-defeat in that is that nobody wants someone who is waiting around for a soul mate. They want someone who is doing something with their life and I constantly feel like I haven't accomplished enough. Sometimes I feel like for my circumstances and being a mother though, I have accomplished a lot. These are my constant thoughts.