Please specify your enneagram type, and also MBTI/JCF and tritype if you know it. =)How do you experience self-doubt?
How do I experience self-doubt? I rarely do, because I don't put that much weight on most things. Most things aren't worth doubting myself over or putting myself through any type of mental anguish. I weigh things in the balance. If it's something that matters, really matters, like earth-shattering stuff, then yes, there is the possibility of self-doubt. But even then, it's only because I put the focus on me. It manifests itself as butterflies, jitters and general hyperness.
What causes it? If I focus on myself when I realize that I have to do something huge that is out of my comfort zone, for which I am ill-prepared or something that I deem to be unbearable drudgery, I will experience self-doubt. I think self-doubt, for me, is when I allow my 'false' ego to rise to the surface. When I remember that it isn't about me, that the world is a lot bigger than the feelings of one person, that the true needs of the many outweigh the wants/feelings of the one, then there's not much room for self-doubt.
What do you feel inside? Jumpy, like a racehorse waiting for the gate to open or like there are a million live grasshoppers in my stomach.
What do you do or show on the outside? Voice quivers. Hands/legs shake. Sometimes I just get quiet and pensive.
What is self-doubt to you? Feeling ill-equiped to accomplish a task or deal with a situation that is of some sort of cosmic/eternal and earth-shattering consequence. (asking somebody out does not fall into that category for me, deciding whether or not to pull the plug on a brain-dead parent does.).
What is "self" to you? Self is my eternal persona, housed in this temporal shell and if a thing isn't going to make a huge difference in my life or someone else's I never sweat it. If it isn't going to be remembered five years down the road, I don't sweat it. I remind myself that I have nothing to prove, nothing to loose.