Smoking, crack cocaine, meth, heroine, sex, masturbation, overeating, cutting....
I'm pretty confident the key for a better life when it comes to 9s is to start entertaining the idea....that some of your physical vices might be bad for you.
I tried quitting smoking 3 times before. I haven't smoked for 4 months or so now (my personal record). Now, I personally could never stand people that shoved physical activity down one's throat. I hate it, and have always hated it.
But after a while you start seeing a pattern. Sloth is nothing more than a failure to recognize that our body, our gut plays a HUGE part in one's life, specially if you are a 9, at the center of the gut triad.
When I stopped smoking, I'd get excited. My energy levels would rise and I'd feel pretty good about myself...but then I'd get drunk (and I'm not a regular drinker)....lose my sight for one night where I was with friends and everything was going well and I'd ask someone for a smoke....and BAM! Next day, hey I'm a smoker again. Friends would say something like good ole Moiety's back and like the stupid fuckface that I can sometimes paradoxically be I'd laugh with them and congratulate myself for being such the beatnik.
Thing is the cycle got old. Now, the lesson I learned is that for me cold turkey was the answer. I haven't stopped drinking, but I regulated my drinking so as whenever I drink I never get to the point where I can lose my nerve and fall back on an old bad habit.
This is true for anything. I remember how I felt why I tried psychoactive drugs for the first time "I knew there was more to life than this stupid background turpor". Guess what...when uninhibited the big pattern is that my love for other people just overflows. It's pretty pathetic and I'm sure as an ENFP I might be more attuned to that than other 9s....but it fits wonderfully with the 9's idea of Holy Love. Which as you probably know has nothing to do with what people often call love at all. More like the greek agape.
Anyways the point is that when a 9 DOESN'T numb or stimulate his body with substances or with obsessive physical activities of any kind ..... as funny as it sounds....he gets smarter! He gets wise. He gets everything he always knew he was. All the qualities of the other enneagram bozos (but don't tell them that lest they feel inferior).
What I wanted to know is if any other 9 as noticed this pattern in him/herself? When you're in tune with your body's needs everything goes smoothly ...and when you don't you also tend to "narcotize" yourself almost unconsciously.
In my case, I've had a series of illnesses and little body pointers all along during my life, but it's only when I fell ill that I knew my body was trying to wake up with the most basic form of suffering....pure demonic PAIN.
I might be one of the lucky ones, with a sensitive body....because I can imagine a 9 with a very healthy body....could be narcotizing himself to his doom without even knowing!
Please share your thoughts.