I still wonder if there are any INTP 4s around who are pretty sure about the T preference.
I show the most consistent pattern of being INTP. I do seem to have pretty high Fi, but Ti always clearly wins.
If I had to choose, I would say that I am 5w4, but I fear that I am not giving the 4 enough attention simply because of my thinking preference.
Upon closer inspection, I agree on the 5 and 4 profiles just about evenly, and this short description just about pins me down:
"Type 4 World View: Something's missing. Others have it. I'm different from them because I don't.
Basic Desire: to understand self
Basic Fear: of being defective"
I am also hopelessly fascinated with the individual, the one that breaks the pattern, the strange and different, etc. (and who else would start such a thread...)
I am the alien watching down on earth, analyzing its ways...
But there are some inconsistencies:
Fours supposedly look deep into some sort of "darkness within." I see no dark, just weaknesses to endlessly improve upon.
Also about those weaknesses, I do not let them hide my strengths. I still enjoy my strengths well. Are fours not allowed to see themselves as awesome?
Fours are also not supposed to rationalize their states, but I seem to do little more than rationalize them. Does the fact that an INTP rationalizes the bits out of everything mean they cannot be a four?
Is INTP 4 a contradiction in terms? Are there any combinations of types and enneagram that are truly contradictions? I wish to investigate the possible contradictions in these oddities.